Too Many Decisions

Today I finally took the plunge....

I went into Career Services and asked about getting a summer internship. I know it is getting kind of late to find one of those, but I had hoped I could squeeze in. What I got in response was not as helpful as I had hoped. What I got was advice that I needed to find my passion in life. If I don't find my passion then I will never be truly happy. This is so difficult for me to take on. He said that I knew what my true passion was and that I just need to work on uncovering it. I feel like I have been trying to uncover it for a log time.

When will I finally know?

I feel like I have been waiting so long to figure out what I want to add my passion and drive to. I feel as if I am almost out of time. I need to figure this out like yesterday!

He also recommended studying abroad and opening my eyes to the world. I feel like me eyes are already open. Maybe they aren't. Can the secrets to the universe please just be written down already. I would like a letter from my future self telling me what to do.

So watch out world I am going to come for you soon..... I hope with a list of my passions.

I take it back!!

So the weekend went by super fast! I totally had one of those moments where you wish you could take back what you said. I was at the Great American Market registering voters with the League of Women Voters. It was extra credit for class and sounded like a good time. I saw one of my teachers and we made awkward eye contact like should we speak to each other outside of class kind of thing. I asked if he was registered to vote and he was like no not here. I was like do you want to register to vote today? He said no. I was not thinking and said, Why not? Bad choice to ask someone why they don't want to register. Politics are already so sensitive and I was completely not thinking. He responded with I don't believe in voting. I had no idea on how to respond so I just said aww that's too bad, and he walked away. 

I thought about this experience all day and night and into Monday. I am now scared to go to class because I am not sure what to do about it. I know that I should not have pressured him but sometimes stupid stuff comes out of my mouth. Literally the story of my life. Any bad situation I have been in is caused by me saying something I shouldn't have. Hopefully the teacher won't hold it against me. Who knows what will happen. 

A New Perspective: 

Today was A-MAZING!! I am the philanthropic chairman for my sorority. I love it, I love creating events for people to see how they can change the community around them with just the time they spend. I would love to do more but it's tough in a world steeped in tradition to be a game changer. That aside I really do love my position. In two weeks there is a huge community service activity we sponsor with a fraternity. This is the 20th anniversary for this event to happen! (That is a REALLY long time in college terms.) So we asked a radio station if we could record a commercial and they play it the week of the event. Well.... they said YES! So today the fraternity boy and I went and recorded the commercial!! It was life changing. I loved every minute of it. The guy editing the sound bites, the way our voices flowed together so nicely, the feel of being in the radio station. It was all so much fun. It was exciting and thrilling and amazing. My new dream job is to work on the radio. That is my new goal I am going to work towards. I know, I know it's a jumbled life.